Hello!
Well last week I wasn't as motivated as I have been since I started. I did all my workouts I just wasn't in the mood to do my workouts. But since then I've picked up the intensity of my workouts, continued my meals as planned. I had one moment of weakness last week and although I'm embarrassed and a little ashamed to share about it, I will. I had a hard week and I had been busy at work all day and gotten home late in the evening. My husband was pulling an overnight at work and I had eaten my last meal and was still hungry and stressed. And there it was in the fridge.....that Reese's Peanut Butter blast ice cream (yes it taste as good as it sounds) that I had eaten a little of last week for part of my cheat dessert. And I grabbed a spoon and ate a few bites of it, right out of the carton......after I had several spoonfuls I threw the container away with the remaining ice cream. The next evening I told my husband about it and that I was upset with myself and disappointed. His reaction was hilarious, he said "thank goodness you're normal!" I've been able to say no to SO many things that I guess it was starting to worry my husband. I've been eating so well but my metabolism has gotten so high that it has started to make me hungry within 1-2 hours after I eat a meal. I hadn't gotten used to this feeling and I started to stress myself out about it and I had a moment of weakness. I used to be an emotional eater, stress would hit and I would want junk food or a sugar snack to make my worries feel better. But now I don't have that sugary security blanket. Now I just need to deal with whatever emotions I'm having and forget about the eating to feel better part. Here's the wrong way to deal with food- feeling that I'm ashamed and have failed at this process just because I had a moment of weakness. I had to fight the feeling that I was a failure and had ruined my progress. The truth is those feelings are all a lie. I've gained a lot through this process, I never quit even when I wasn't feeling my best. I did every workout when before I would have quit. I ate every meal I was supposed to afterwards and I wrapped up that day and threw it away and put all the shame with it. I am strong, capable and well on my way to being the best athlete I can be. I missed updating with last weeks progress pictures because I felt terrible but I've been a lean mean clean eating and working out lady as usual so this week there will be updates! Since the day with the ice cream I've realized something. I am at a point where I'm not as strong as I used to be with will power, so no more junk in the house, or baking and I'm ignoring food commercials as much as possible. I don't want to have anything trigger any cravings. I just visualize the end of this journey and how many people have said they are proud of me and excited for me and I wanted to be real about my journey. We all have moments of weakness, but you've got to pick yourself up and keep on going!! I hope that this helps someone with their journey.
As far as training goes, I'm researching different moves to mix up my workouts and make sure I'm able to really work out my muscle groups. I can't go easy on myself and if I am short on time that doesn't mean I go easy on myself. I just Superset moves. (I do a set and then another set back to back. Like lateral raise set then shoulder press set). My outdoor workout with sprints, bleachers and mile run has been good and a nice change of pace from the gym. I keep those as my day off workouts. I've been meeting with my trainer every week and next week I will have some cardio updates so I'll keep you posted on how scared and happy I am :)
Cheat meals: I get a cheat meal each week now!!!! I usually do them on Saturday and eat them whenever my schedule allows (lunch, breakfast, or dinner depending on my schedule) Because of my weakness during last week I kept my cheat a little leaner. I had sliced brisket, veggies, salad, sweet potato fries, and spinach dip. Dessert was a banana tortilla peanut butter roll up. I didn't want to have a cheesy pizza, or a big burger or anything too heavy but I wanted to enjoy myself also. I think the brisket hit the right balance of something different and a treat. I'm not sure what I'm wanting for next week really, I've thought about doing sushi or hibachi but I've got a few more days to think about it.
Thanks for reading this blog and I hope that whether it's the moments I shine or the moments I may fall short, that something I've gone through has helped someone! Well, guess it's back to prepping food for me!!
Cheers!
Ash
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