I had a fun night out with my hubs and friend Ang on Friday night! We went and listened to a speaker series that was being held and it was pretty interesting. I'm on this new kick to be inspired in life and create something all my own and listening to people's motivations, journeys and speeches is pretty eye opening sometimes. So afterwards we did what any normal group of friends would do, we were concerned about food. Now I had already eaten my meal before hand because I didn't want to reach starvation point and since I'm not eating out for the 21 day stretch I walked over to a local coffee place and got a hot green mint tea. I'm not a big tea person, but I just might turn into one. This tea was pretty awesome! It kept my mind off the fact that my friends wanted to grab a few slices of pizza (in the past I would have def been in line ordering my cheesy goodness!) but I had my tea and met one of Angie's friends from work and had an awesome time telling jokes and stories with the group. Afterwards it was time to celebrate that it was Friday and have some drinks. We went to a bar we love and I got cozy with my water. Before I would have enjoyed a nice cold beer, or one of the many lovely drinks on the menu and relaxed, but alas my goal is much bigger than a drink and if I want to see changes I have to make changes. But again it was great to be in such awesome company and enjoy my friends. There were moments where I recognized the habits I had built and made a conscious effort to break them. My husband got one of my favorite beers, Delirium Nocturnum, and I found myself almost taking a sip of his beer. Several times my hand went out and I almost said "can I try a little" but that's exactly what I used to do. Our other friend got a drink on the menu I would definitely have ordered and he asked if I wanted to try it, the truth is I did want to try it but I can't. But it made me think of all these little habits I had made that were detrimental to my goal. While I cook I almost always want a snack, or when one of my friends wants to share their food I usually say yes. But that night was a great practice night too and really I am super lucky. No one made me feel stupid or ridiculous or asked me a ton of questions like "why am I doing this?" or had any negative points, no one really asked me even why I wasn't having a drink. There will be times I might get asked why or what for but for right now I am so glad I got to go out with my friends have a normal night with good conversation, getting to know new people and just enjoy life. No fixation on food or having a few drinks all my focus was on my goal and the people I have in my life are the most supportive people I could ever ask for. And I guess my friends have a designated driver for the next 34 weeks :) I hope that everyone is having a great day wherever they are at in the world and if you are making any positive changes in your life I wish you well!!
Cheers,
Ash
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