I've been having a few amazing days and of course it's time to share, show and tell! So let's start with the fact that I started crossfit up again. I really enjoyed the workouts I've done before but since I had a little break I felt that "uh...do I really wanna go to crossfit?" kind of moments. But box up those thoughts and throw them right out!!! I went to two workouts this week and before the workouts started I had that feeling of doubt and that I would "try my best and see what happens". I catch myself doing that from time to time, I judge my own abilities and performance based on everyone else. What I learned is that I don't need to benchmark my best based on what others appear to be (taller, skinnier, faster, more fit) because my best IS my benchmark. I decided what I will do from now on when given a challenge is this:
1. I will look at the challenge realistically and set realistic goals.
2. During the workout I will push to go just a little past those goals.
3. Then I will say to hell with realistic and just a little past those goals, I'm aiming for great and then blow that shit outta the water!!! BOOM!
Which is exactly what I did yesterday in my cross fit workout! I walked in and was the only girl in the class with 3 other guys. I started to compare my abilities to others and whether I would be able to keep up with the guys in my workout. Once the workout started I decided to focus on me, keep my pace steady, I took small breaks only when my muscles needed them. And before I knew it I had finished my reps before the guys and I thought "wait did I miscount? I must have done something wrong." I went up to the instructor and told him what I was thinking and he told me that no he had been watching the group and I had kept a steady enough pace to be done with the reps. So I took off out the door and finished with my 800 meter run and BOOM just like that I had a kick ass workout and I beat the boys! I know that every workout won't be like this, where I win first, but here's the real deal now I can go into the situation thinking that winning isn't out of the question for me. I can feel that part of myself coming back that I really enjoy. The more high spirited and fiesty part of my personality and it makes me feel amazing. I had my first day where I felt more committed to my journey and to my potential. I looked at myself and thought "I can SO do this!!!!". And I wanted to share that because I think I spent too much time on the sideline judging myself by other people's potential and not my own. I think a lot of people do this in their lives and maybe sharing this can help someone realize that you are amazing and unique and special and there's no reason not to be! So don't ever sell yourself too short, you have more potential than you know!
And I never posted a pic of my last meal of the day so here it is:
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| Flank Steak, spring mix salad, lots of raw green, yellow and red bell peppers and broccoli and balsamic vinaigrette |
The other thing that has me feeling great is that I heard back about a job opportunity! We've been in our new house for a month and I know that being home is awesome but I really am more productive when I'm busy. I hope this opportunity works out because I know I would be awesome :) I've been trying this new thought process out and I don't know if it's working or if I just feel happier but here's the idea of it. I am trying to approach everything with kindness in my heart and happiness for others. By doing this I just feel like if I continue to send good vibes into the world then I'll notice more when good things are on my path. So I hope good things are on your path wherever you are!
Cheers and positive thoughts your way!
Ash
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